Body sore... mind racing

Time please go fast

don't think i'm gonna last

but thanks G' upstaires

for not sending me a nother delay!!!!!!

I need some seriaaaas sleep!!!! After three

espressos and two redbulls my body is confuckulated!

Anybody wanna rescue lil old me!?!

I soooo have forgotten what it's like to blog. Right now I have no clue what to blog about. So geuss

I'll just cruise this space. Chill at work till 3am thanks to a certain flight delay. Isn't work just awesome hey. Especially on a lovely Sunday like this.

Shall we dance?

Between Egyptian sheets

Till our fingers touch

And our lips meet

We could pretend

Like it’s the first time

We explore each other

We could do things

That we wouldn’t dare

Do to another

I will give as much

As you could possibly want

Until you could want no more

I will be as passionate a lover

You could desire

Or as rough as you require

Let’s not play it safe in bed

When we could reach new heights

With so much delight

I am not a shy lover

We could explore on the floor

Or play against the door

You could wrestle me up against the wall

My body is there

For you to explore

You can take as much as you want

I’m eager to take all

Even willing to beg for more

Shall we dance?

Too the silent song of two lovers

After a moment like this there could be no other...

Sensual eruption

Sexual seduction

Take my hand lead the way

Let’s explore each other every minute of this day

We can do whatever you want

However you want

I am ready

I am willing

Take me here and now

Let your hands move freely up or down

Touch every part of my being

Devour me as you wish

Don’t stop until this day is finished

I have waited

I have counted the days

Where your head will settle between my thighs

Where you tongue will speak in divine ways neither of us could imagined

I have craved your skin on mine

Your scent

The flicker in your eyes

As we reach climax after climax

Then cuddle till new strength is found

Too do things so profound...

Isn't it funny how you sometimes stumble over old emails and you think to yourself,'Wow I was such a sweet little girl then.' Well not like I'm that much older... I just read a few old emails from 2003 when I was probably the sweetest 19 year old. I was studying part time at the time and was working bout six to eight waitress shifts at the time. Not really because I needed the money, but mostly to hang out with friends while working.Back then I couldn't imagine what my life would be like today. If I did I think I would have assumed that I would have been much more "responsible" or "grown up". If I knew then that I would turn out to be a bigger kid then what I was then I would have probably not taken everything so serious. 

But then again when I was 19 I was between relationships! During the week was meant for boyfriend and weekends belonged to my then girlfriend. Back then my favourite day of the week was Tuesday. We were this big group of friends working together and we would do something special every Tuesday. We would go to the movies or go check out one of the new restaurants in Stellenbosch.We would go for drinks at one place, then starters at another while deciding where we'd go for mains. Then

there was the option of having dessert or just moving straight on to clubbing. Man those were the days!Now most of those friends are married, others just disappeared from the face of the earth and the small group of us that still manage to keep in touch have to make dates way in advance so that our schedules don't clash...Or at least theirs with mine!

Eish I miss the good old days!

Today is just another day

And I don't have much to say

So baby you wanna take a role in the hay

We can try to make babies

Or you could just call me your baby 

we could explore places

That so many times has been seen before

I don't mind your naked skin against mine

Hell I'd enjoy it any time

We could get sweaty 

and nasty

and naughty

Chorus

La la laaa laaa 

La la la la la laaaaaaa

We could do all those things

We could even make this a song

And I'll try to sing

But don't you say nothing

No nothing

When glass starts to crack

Cause baby I know my singing voice is wack

But honey don't you just love me like that?

We could get a pole in the room

Play that song that goes boom boom boom

I'll get down on the floor

don't worry I won't act like a cheap lil whore

So take out that money

And start paying your honey!

Chorus

La la la laaaaa 

La la la laaa la laaaa!

Lyrics by: Caprice

Bwahahahahahahahahaha!

Helllooooooo tooooo my lil friends

I tip toed into the room

Where you laid on my bed

I've missed you my love

Every minute with you is just not enough

I lay down beside you

And we just stare at the ceiling

Isn't it fun how we talk with out saying anything

You take my hand in yours 

Your smile whispering, 'I love you'

You kiss me on the cheek

and pull me into your arms

I love how much we do

When we're doing nothing

Your breathing lulls me to sleep

I wonder off into dreams of you and me

Where we are as we were minutes ago before I closed my eyes

You hold me so tight 

As if I could disappear with the night

I love what we do 

When we're doing nothing

And the world seems to belong too you and I

I know when I wake up 

I'll find you by my side.

The wheels on the bus go round and round...

It's black it's white

I wanna be Micheal

Maybe then I'll be right

Hey djy Malema send some of that Millions my way...

Kykie Jub Jub i've got an organisation that needs to be funded,

I'ts called my lifestyle!

I bet you if we had a gay President we would finally have that REAL rainbow nation

everyone be talking about.

The wheels on th bus go round and round

blah blah blaaaah

Lah lah laaaaaaaaaaaah

Oh sorry, hey there... didn't see you for a moment

They stood there in the moon light he looked into her eyes and she into his. A soft breeze blew in my direction. It brought her familiar lavender scent up my nostrils. As she kissed him I could almost feel those same lips brushing gently against mine. I stood there behind the street light trying to conceal myself from them. The defective light helped the slim body that was pressed against it. While the soft wind continued to blow in my direction there was no evidence of any clouds in the dark sky, lid up by only the moon and its shimmering lights. I observed the two lovers with all angst. It was not too long ago that I also knew her loves embrace. As Leigh’s lips disappears into those of her lover, I tighten my grip on the cold metal object hidden with in my pocket. When their lips part John her lover mutters something to her, I fail to make out what he says. He swings his arm around her waist. Their bodies turn to the direction where I am. Whether they see me or not I do not care. I know this is the moment of confrontation I have been awaiting. As the two figures come closer I wait till they are only steps away from where I stand. Their conversation and laughter becomes clearer. I step out from behind the gloomy light. I reach for the cold metal object in the left pouch of my jacket. Their eyes try to make sense of the figure standing in front of them. I say nothing. I place my finger on the trigger and point the object in their direction. A shriek escapes her body and she jerks backwards mechanically. For the first time I hear her lover John speak. “Please man we’ll give you all we have on us, just don’t hurt her.” I can hear in his voice his fear. If it was me, I too would be scared. He is right I have come to take something, something that he’d never own if I succeed tonight. I glance into her direction automatically my stretched out arm follows. I take a step closer. I want her to see me. This time she doesn’t jolt. She doesn’t let out a cry. “Come on man, my car isn’t parked far from here. Take it just don’t hurt us man.” The hoody that thus far has concealed my identity makes it hard for him to distinguish as too whether I am a man or a woman. The pitch of his voice elevates, but I am too focused on her to make sense of what he is saying. Leigh’s eyes are fixed on mine she takes the next step closer too where I stand. A dance between the two of us, one he is not apart of. She leans in and mumbles, ‘Lauren?’

My name is all she says while I press the metal against her chest. She lets out a heave a sigh. While her eyes are still fixed on mine she tries to calm down her now frantic lover. He speaks nervously like someone who fears for his life. Leigh’s voice on the other hand is so calm and reassuring. She tells him, ‘John I need for you to trust me right now. Can you do that?’

He looks at her confused. ‘Can you do that?’ Leigh asks again. His eyes are in search of an answer but hers offers none. Slowly he nods his head while looking bewildered. Like a school boy who is about to receive a punishment for something he is not even aware of. ‘John, I want you to go to your place. I want you to wait there till I call you. I’ll explain everything to you, but right now I really want you to leave.’

‘I can’t leave you alone with this lunatic!’ he protests.

She glances at me and then at him again. ‘No I’ll be fine. I know her.’ She replies. He wants to say something again, but I can’t stand the pathetic scene that’s playing off in front of me. For the first time I manage to say something, ‘Did you not hear what she said. Get the hell out of here!’ I shout as I now point the pistol in his direction. I can see the horror in his eyes. It amuses me. I start counting, ‘One… Two…’

‘I’ll go! I’ll go!’ he shouts back at me, his arms stretched above his head. This is not what I had planned, but seeing the guy in such terror does give me a great deal of pleasure. He takes off in the direction in which he came with her. Not once looking back. I’m sure the guy must have pissed himself when he heard me counting. The whole scene reminds me of a movie I once saw, the name I can’t recall at this moment. I can’t hold back, his reaction was just too comic like. I burst out laughing while watching him disappear into the dark.

It only takes me a split second to react to the burning sensation on my right cheek as she lifts her hand from it. ‘What the hell is your problem?’ Leigh demands.

I hold my cheek with the one hand while still pointing the pistol in her direction. ‘You’re pathetic you know.’ She continues. She stirs up the familiar anger I feel towards her. I take my hand from my own face and grab her by the throat. I place the mouth of the pistol against her head. I can feel the veins in her neck pumping. I tighten my grip. My nails dig into her warm skin. I draw her even closer, her lips centimeters from mine. Her scent of lavender runs up my nostrils again. I close my eyes to savor the moment. I can feel her breathing. I become so intoxicated with her being so close to me that my grip on the pistol relaxes. I lick my lips as I move in to kiss her.

All those emotions for her that I’ve tried to convert into anger returns. I can’t hold back any longer. I want to kiss her. I bring my lips against hers. I open my eyes and see that she too is caught up in this moment. The arm in which I hold the pistol falls to her side. I wrap it around her waist and draw her so close that there is no space between us any longer. My lips disappears in hers, she opens her mouth slowly. My tongue runs into the space that welcomes it so eagerly. She massages my tongue with hers. I push mine deeper into her. I want to devour all there is of her. My hand in which I held her neck moves up her beautifully defined jaw. I interject our kiss so to run my hands over her luscious lips. And then I replay the scene in my head where she stood with him. Kissing him like I never existed. The anger over takes me a wave of pain comes crashing inside of me. I can’t hold back the tears that come with it. She tries to comfort me, but I push her away. ‘You’re not thinking clear right now Lauren.’ she says so sympathetically. She takes the pistol and replaces it with her hand.

‘You can sleep at my place tonight. I know you wouldn’t have hurt me.’

I don’t say anything in response. I am too overwhelmed with emotions. All I manage to do is stare into her eyes. She forces a caring smile and speaks again. ‘You love me too much.’

As her words is blown away by the gentle breeze I try to conjure up some of that hate for her, but all I manage to feel is sadness for me. I know she is my bad addiction.

Hey peoples

Hope all is well in Blogville! Haven't been able to just chillax and come on here for a while... hope I will verrrrry soon. Just thought I'd pop in and say HEYA!

Anyways...

I gotta run, have a few things I need to get sorted. Tell you all as soon as I know what happening. Watch this space and uhm hold thumbs for my "lil thang" I gotsta do!

Mwah mwah

Check you on the flip side peoples

Caps signing out

Hey peoples

Yes it has been a while... but you know how it goes this time of the year. Will have to make some time to get back to some of your comments!

Anywhoooo... Happy new year! Alles wat mal is vir 2010!

Quick question...

How I get from Rondebosch  to Fish Hoek for tomoz MOB? Some directions please. Yes yes, I'm a dumb blond when it comes to directions!!!!

A quick shout out to EVERYONE at the last MOB I attended, it was awesome. Still didn't get me a sugar mami! Is it cause I look twelve? I'm all legal eagle folks, don't sweat the kiddy look. lol

Anyways uhm those directions would be nice.

P.S Got my results and eish....

PASSED!!!! Yeh baby

Did I not warn you lot some time ago that I was bringing sexc back?

Pow! Take that

Eat your heart out Angelina! 

Oh and one of my very talented brother's art. It's a self portrait of him.

His about 17 turning legal the 8th of next month!

As you can see he did it on cardboard. Soooo proud of him!

And she sang,

Who's holding me tonight?

Who's sleeping by my side?

Who's loving me right?

I walked up to her

Planted a kiss

She was my only desire

The one for so long I have admired 

Told her I couldn't sing 

But my heart could tell stories

Of true emotion

That's all I could bring

She whispered what could you do for me? 

And I said

I could hold you tonight

could sleep by your side

I could love you so right

She looked me up and down 

and up again

Turned around and walked away

While screaming at me,

Sorry babe it's not your lucky day

Talk about a biatch!

We could take things slow

Stroke by stroke

Wildest dream could be evoked 

Stroke by stroke

We could try something new

Add a little fuel

Too our every desire

Until it feels like we're floating higher and higher

I could settle between your thighs

In search of new worlds 

A visit that couldn't be denied

with no words in sight

I could run my tongue

From your neck

Have it settled down your back

It could be so much fun

Moving with your breathing

Touching, licking

Until you burst out screaming

Begging me for more

We could take things slow

night by night

Stroke by stoke

Passionate dreams will be evoked

You’re on my mind

Running wild in my head

Why aren’t you here in my bed?

Running your hand down my neck

Sinking your lips into mine

Just for the moment

The limited time

Let’s forget the world

Just for this moment

Let’s not talk

Of things that are

That could be

Let’s just indulge in you and me

Right now I could be everything you want me to be

I could be the one setting your secret desires free

Allow me to show you my world

One where no lies are soled

Where dreams can be made a reality

No need for fantasies

Wouldn’t you enjoy

The silent song

Sang by my tongue

Stroked gently, slowly by yours

While our bodies spoke in multitudes

Ways words could never express

Or the mind to imagine

Your every desire explored

No need to whisper you want more

I’ll give and give until I feel that you’re pleased

I’ll breathe in every part of you

Until there’s nothing left to be devoured

All you need to do is dance slowly

Too my gentle stroke

You don’t have to do much

Just allow our bodies to touch

To run as one

For only this one time

Leave the dreams

Give in to the reality of such a passionate crime

Would you for the moment be mine?

The innocents scattered all over the floor

The story of a child is no more

You took parts of me so easily

So hastily 

As if there was nothing pure here to be left alone

You took the life out of me, replaced it with a stone

I am a child

Can't you see

You were suppose to protect me

But instead you became the beast that took most of me

Stripped me from my spirit and soul

Pushed me in a hole of silence

A part of me that could never be free

You left your mark

The stain can't be erased

To me it was anything but a phase

you walk pass me pretending it was a game

To something I never gave consent 

Myself I could not defend

I am a child

I should be running around free and wild

I should be the symbol of innocence

I shouldn't have to carry this scare

This secret pain in my heart

Every minute, Every hour the pain grows faster

Because of you my future a disaster

I could never view the world through the eyes of a child

You stripped me of that part

16 days they offer to console my heart

I gotta take a little time
A little time to think things over
I better read between the lines
In case I need it when Im colde

In my life there's been heartache and pain
I don't know if I can face it again
Cant stop now, Ive traveled so far
To change this lonely life

I wanna know what love is.....
I want you to show me......
I wanna feel what love is.....
I know you can show me......

I'm gonna take a little time
A little time to look around me....
Ive got nowhere left to hide
It looks like love has finally found me....

In my life! there's been heartache and pain
I don't know if I can face it again
I cant stop now, Ive traveled so far
To change this lonely life!.!.!.!.

I wanna know what love is.....
I want you to show me......
I wanna feel what love is......
I know you can show me......

For some reason this song seems to be on repeat in my head

Do you usually sleep with your closet door open or closed?

*Closed, I'm scared of the closet monster. Couldn't even get myself to stay in it when I first realized I was a vaginatarian!

Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotels?  

*Nah not really my thing

Have you ever 'done it' in a hotel room? 

 *Oh come on! Who hasn't? Haha

Where is your next vacation? 

*I am currently enjoying one at Gf's place, but we gonna go to this beautiful place in Mossel Bay with some friends!

Have you ever stolen a street sign before? 

*Nah, haven't had the chance too

Do you have a calendar in your room?

*Nah, my phone has one already 

Where are you? 

 *I'm right here silly, can't you see?!

What's your plan for the day? 

 *The day has passed already, but the initial plan was to take a shower, cook and have some wine. And did exactly that!

Are you reading any books right now?

*Uhm, this time of the year aint such a good idea for me to do reading... too much partying going on (well not right now)

Do you ever count your steps when you walk? 

*Yep between talking to myself. Strange thing though, I always loose count 

Do you ever dance even if there's no music playing?  

 *Who doesn't...? Right??

Do you chew your pens and pencils?

 *When I'm bored

Is it okay for guys to wear pink? 

*Sure, why not

 What do you drink with dinner? 

*what eva there is

What is your favorite food/cuisine? 

 *Anything edible! But my fav fav is breyani!!!!

 What movies could you watch over and over and still love? 

*What ever's playing on DSTV, they repeat that shit so much and still I aint complaining 

Last person you hugged/kissed? 

*My lovey

Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine?

*Why wouldn't I, I've got an ass most old birds would kill for! Hahahaha (just joking)

When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper? 

*Way back in school... so 8years ago. Everyone has email now, why would I kill a tree to do that?

Can you change the oil on a car?

*Ask me again when I someday manage to get my license

Ever gotten a speeding ticket? 

*Don't think so

Run out of gas?

*How do anyone manage to do that?

What is your usual bedtime?

Lately about 1 or 2am. Depends on how quick gf get's tired...

Are you lazy?

*Just when mom's around

Which are better, legos or lincoln logs? 

*Eish... do I look five? I just act like one

Ever watch soap operas?

Yeah gays of my life!

Afraid of heights? 

*Oooooh! VERY!

Sing in the car?

*Ofcoz ya! Even though I suck at it. Can't be good at everything

Dance in the car? 

*Hell yeah! Like I'm in a music vid

Ever used a gun?

*Toy gun count??

Do you take a vitamin daily?

*Ha a always forget

Wear slippers?

*Oh yes I do, els mom shouts at me... lol

What do you wear to bed?

*sometimes pjs, other times undies and otherrr times uhm nothing

Ever taken karate?

*Yeh the time my couz tried to teach me and I was still in the tomboy phase. Vesin I know

Ever kissed someone of the same sex? 

*All the time, hardly do one's of the opposite though. That weird?

Can you curl your tongue? 

*nah my tongue ring in the way. Ya I know, sies

Regularly burn incense?

*always, but mostly when I'm smoking skelempies in my parents house

Ever been in love?

*Am at the mo

Favorite kind of cookie?

*lol... does gf's count?

Can you swim well? 

*common I'm coloured, ofcoz I can

Ever won a contest?

*this one time when I was six. had to blow biggest bubble and win a huge bag of chappies. Last time I won anything

Do you want to get married?

*oooh that's a tricky one

Do you cry and throw a fit until you get your own way?

*I might be 25, but I still know how to get my way. Just a pity this is always my last resort...lol

Do you want kids?

*Yes ofcoz, just do I have to put my body through that????